i love playing peek-a-boo wif ron!!! i love playing the guai lan game wif ron!!! HAHAHHAS =))))) play more play more... SAY HELLO tat's my good doggie


ok enuff of my non-sense...


major fight wif one of my frends ytd nite... tmd!!! freaking pissed and angry... jus a gentle reminder... i dun nid u to judge our relationship.. im old enuff to noe wat is best for me... but on the other hand im glad we are back to normal... (at least i hope) i know i know u are just caring abt us lar... but really tat's no nid to go to such extent.. sometimes i wonder whether wat baby says is true... whether u are trying to break us up.. i dun noe... so jus stop everything now.. b4 we cant even be frends... and i nv wan tat to happen T__T i lost too many b4...


and bcos of tat big big fight... i went around searching how those pple who used to surround me are doing and one of them is having problems... i guess he doesnt rmb tat i once used to be his soulmate.. where he can tel me everything he wants in the world... and how i can tel him everything i wan.. every single time im in trouble he will always one of them caring for me... but now... he claims he cant find any1 beside him... perhaps i shld really stop living in my own world... and take a good look at all those who cares for me... and it's time for me to lend them my support... but how do i go abt doing it?? when it's always them coming over? i dun noe where to start frm... but i will try... try tonite.. hopefully i will be able to help him.. like how he always use to. i really dun noe... mayb he needs peace and once he is ready he will call me up again? like how he always use to...


so fustrating tat ever since im wif mrxu.. i guess i sort of neglected every1 around me... it's like im living in my own little world... it's so much so tat i dun even noe how my frends are doing... and to make things worse.... i even lied to some1... and tat some1 stil dun noe the truth... OMG..MFG!!!! i guess he gave up on me jus cos of the stupid lie i told him... and den he doesnt wan to bother much abt me cos he tinks tat im such a bloody stupid woman wif no brains... but den it's a lie... and i dun noe how to break it out to him... cos i noe for sure he's soooo gonna be sooo mad at me... but at least he cared while im hospitalised.. so mayb... mayb he wont be tat angry wif me when i tel him to truth HAHAH... oh man... i shld really tel him the truth that shld have been unfold 10 months ago...FUCK i now den rmb...TMD.. okies i noe he will definitely forgive me.. jus tat he will be sooo mad at me 1st.


i really shld stop everything... and look ard... and stop taking pple for granted...


so i will stop losing anyone else... too much is lost.. i nid them back.... i noe.. i noe.. they will come back.. jus a matter of how i do it =))

alrights enuff said...


not tat it's cos mrxu den i didnt care for them ok... it's a very long time le... ever since i started poly... im soooo busy... tat i dun hae time.. and i guess they dun dare to ask me out le cos im oways rejecting them... and now wif mrxu... it just gets worse... so overall it's not ur fault k baby =)) jus tat now i hae more time... i will make time for every1 ^ ^