this is going to be so random.. actually i have been thinking wat do i really wan to achieve in my life.. are there any goals or dreams in my life?? all along i knew that the tourism industry is definitely not something i would wan to do in future.. but i've been struggling wif wat i really wan.. and i tink recently, i have found the path i wan in life.. it's really hard to stay in dtrm.. i've no motivation to do well at all... whenever i'm studying i wld gif up halfway, cos i know that this is something tat i dun wan to be associated wif in future. seriously i dread it...

travelling is something i definitely 100 % would love to do it.. but enjoying and working in the industry are 2 different things.. i dun wan to come to the point where i start to hate travelling cos i hate studying or working in it...

the attachment has also been very fruitful cos it woke me up.. i realise service line is something i dread too.. but sometimes i gt to admit tat i enjoy it.. and i know that if i put in all my effort in my attachment, i wld get an A but i dun wan.. i jus dun wan to... why slog my life for something i dun wan in my life? i would rather waste all my other energy to consider abt more impt things in my life.. and i also realise tat, i only get to live once, so why for strive to do well for everything and not enjoying it.. so i decided to jus have fun during my internship..

this is so annoying... growing up is hard... thinking abt wat i really wan is torturing.. sometimes i really wish im like bro bro.. wat he wants in his life is so clear and definite.. and he strive hard for it.. so when he really did it, he gt a sense of satisfaction.. jus like wat i felt when my kids do well for their exams.. but when i see my results in sch... i dun feel good or anything.. mayb im not doing well enuff?? im not sure..

im confuse at this point of time.. i guess every1 will go thru a stage where they struggle wif wat they really wan in life.. im already 19 and it's time for me to really sit dwn and consider real carefully wif wat i would like to do in future... dwelling, throwing tantrums wont help a single shit... i jus hope tat i had made a right decision.. i wouldnt say i have a definite path in life.. but i definitely have something in mind already...

i hope my life will be fulfilling by doing the things i really wan to.. i noe many pple out there are not satisfied wif wat they are doing rite now bcos it's either under some circumstances, they are not able to do so or it's cos they are stil searching a clear goal in their life..

i dun wan tat to happen.. i finally understood wat bro bro say.. and i finally woke up frm my childish dreams.. reality is harsh..

wat are grades? are they really tat impt in my life? NO.. definitely NOT.. striving hard for something u wan in life is impt.. it's only when u start to work real hard towards ur goal,u will produce really good results.. they come naturally tgt.. agree?? tat's wat i tink..

ok enuff of my random thoughts.. hey i'm not emo k!!! Im thinking abt my life so dun say i'm emo LOL... i hope i wont fail any1 this time round bcos this is something tat i wan in life.. though many will say it's not suitable but it's really wat i wan.. =)


okie super duper overdue pics, enjoy!!!


agnes de super belated bday cake LOL



JuJu HotPot =))


my beloved azabu sabo ice-cream~~~








a tour of attractions in sentosa =)


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thanks to those who supported me when i told them abt this ^ ^ especially baby.. yea no matter wat i noe u will be the one who will support me thru everything... i thank u for standing by me =)