Yea I’m feeling so free and happy now =) I asked and got my answers. Though to some it seemed like there’s no answers to the questions. But I know. Well I guess I understand him well. Anticipated all his answers. Saw through all his feelings and thoughts. But at the end of the day. I’m glad =)

My messed up life. Is now so peaceful.

Now the wind came. Lingers around me. The faint pleasant smell makes me smile from within.
Still there’s a little bitter feeling. But it will all soon go away. I know =)) I can look far ahead now.

SQ I LOVE U!!! HAHAHS. Let’s go chill again!!! I don’t mind sitting near the sun again. Makes me sweat. HEH

I can’t wait for JS to come back from his navy mission!!!!
I can’t wait for HH to book out!!!!
I can’t wait to play bbal all over again!!!
I can’t wait to bitch with him on every thurs. My Thursday temp bf. LOL!!!!!
I just can’t wait for wonderful things to happen to me again.

I know when it happens all over again, I will still give all that I’ve got. =)))

I love all that stayed by my side. HAHAS.

SX still trying his luck. Though I made it sooo clear. Sometimes I feel tired. Really tired. I just want to be friends =)) Everything is sooo wonderful when we are friends. Nothing more than that ^ ^

My bitch was shocked when I told him. I like my bf to have no image. To show his true self to me. To talk about every single thing under the sun. Bitch was shocked when I gave an example of no image. WAHAHAHAH. STUPID BITCH. Make me laughed so hard.

QI QING HAI!!! HAHAHS. Ant brought me there to chill, relax and forget. That place was so warm and nice. I’m going to have accounting sessions with him again just like my poly days. Heh. His xiao die thingy made me laugh so hard too.

I want bring my friends to QI QING HAI TOO!!!

Now my life is so complete. When everyone is with me.

My bimbo sisters!!! SO BIMBO!! Fatty and I exchanged clothes with each other. Now we both are happy girls.

Meeting my shallows today.

Well well I can’t wait for my volunteer work to start =))

Ant asked me, when you are old, how will you want your life to be? I said to be in a peaceful hut with a field of mallows and lavender right at my doorstep. With my husband by my side.

Now I want to change. I want all my dear friends to be with me too. Leading a happy and noisy life all together.

How great? HAHAHHAHAS. Just a good dream =)

I can’t wait to smile all over. To fall in love all over again. Though it hurts. But it’s a great and wonderful thing.

Sq asked me something today. So have you let go of everything?

Lookin far ahead. I said yes.

But den again, almost immediately after I said that, I still turned my head around.

STILL!!!

I tried to convince myself then again.

And I realised, it did helped a little.

I felt free now. Free and empty.

Everyone's rushing me. Pushing me. But I know very clearly. Only I can help myself.

I know what kind of guy I'm looking for.

That's when I know, there's a new path waiting for me. Right in front of me. But I have no courage to walk on now. I will still wait at the same place. Till someone finds me there and then.

And off I will move. To the destination I longed for.


Now, I'm struggling with the word, 'happy'

So simple, yet so complex.



I'm starting to understand the words many said to me. I start to decipher everything.




But then again, one day I want to know. I want to ask!!!! There are still questions in my mind. That I longed for an answer. Perhaps when I get the answers. It's soo much easier.



Right now,
I just hope my headache will go away. Been here for ages =(((


I hope to pass all my exams.



Life is so much simpler when I'm younger.




I'm sooo tired of all the outings. I need a good rest.

I'm such a poor student yet i bought a JUICY COUTURE watch today!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!


wahahahaha.


but im super bloody happy.

whatevers lar. i don't care.

shall take things easy.


oh man oh man


my exams are sooooo round the corner.


cross my fingers and pray damn bloody hard.


i wanna pass wif rainbow colours =DDD

Afternoon earth.

Yesterday night was torturing for me.

Actually I couldn't get any peaceful sleep for the past #*@^)$&@%#$!^)*$#%@*^$ months/days. Like wth. I can feel that my body is getting weaker every single day.
Illness came knocking on my door. Immune system down.

That was when I realized, I wanted aaron to be by my side. To comfort me. Sing me lullaby song. Tries his very best to make me smile with his lousy jokes. Which were never funny. To tell me everything is fine. That was when, I realized I didn't cherish what I always had.

Well, for the past one year. I didn't cherish so many people. Yet holding on to the wrong one.

But I'm so stubborn. I didn't regret at all. I think i deserve it.

Maybe, this all happens for a cause.


Till now I can still feel confusion. I wanted to do what he said. But my mind keeps going on the wrong way. I don't know what I can do to help myself. One moment I'm high up, the other moment it's the exact opposite. Or maybe I have been standing at the opposite side. Never once step on the high side.



And I realized I will not have my lunch today. I had to wait till 5pm when I meet SX and JJ.


Then I know. They are not the ones I want to meet today. I don't want to try so hard anymore. I want to meet him. Only then I don't have to try.

This moment I only want to........................





So tiring to go to sleep at night. I hate it when the night falls.

OMG!!!!! Friday was such an interesting night!!

It’s Halloween night at night safari!!!

All thanks to him, I took the terror tram. And I’m still loving the biggest animal there. The super big elephant!!!! He’s such a cutie.

Well the terror tram wasn’t that scary afterall. The ghost didn’t want to come and scare me leh. I think is because I look so innocent pls. They don’t dare to come and scare me. WAHAHAHHA

But I was almost shocked to dead during the terror footpath. Ya ya I deserve it because I did something so freaking bimbo. HAHAHS. He was laughing his ass off at me. KNN!!

Well was such an interesting night afterall =DDD

Yea omg!!! tmr I’m meeting SX and JJ. JJ’s gonna help me with my accounting!!!! YES!!!!! I’m gg to drown him with my thousand and one qns.

HAHAHAHAHS.

On sat, was day out with mummy and bro. well had to ps him. Felt so guilty. Bth.

This week I’m soooo freaking busy.

Monday – Shopping in Bishan
Tuesday – Tuition and meeting up with SX and JJ
Wednesday – School and maybe meeting su qin qin
Thursday – School and meeting someone for supper =DD gonna make him treat, gossip and use his name in times of need. and get myself slapped by him LOL!!!
Friday – school and after that meeting fatty to chill at clarke quay
Saturday – Shopping time at CP
Sunday – Study Time
Next Monday – I wanna go zoo!!!!


My exams are round the corner soon =DD got to slog my life. I promised to be good friends with JJ and please him =DDD wahahahahhaha

I promise to make more time for study. I want to score full marks. Hey that’s what edgar says. Don’t try to beat my marks. Try scoring full marks =DDD that’s the whole point man. I hope he don’t go haywire this Thurs. Bcos when that happens I will suffer from major headache. TMD.

Numbers and more numbers they are drowning me. But I’m happy to be drown by them =DD

Looking forward to my sweets!!! (thanks qin qin for telling me, shortie I jus love PURPLE). OH YA cleocat is on it’s way too =))

I can’t wait! I wanna go overseas again again again.



opps just deleted the other blog. no more other point =D


I just want to whine and say, I want go overseas can??!!!!

I miss being under the sun =(((

Hello earth.

I'm suffering from splitting headache ever since ytd night. wth! Must be that irritating weather.

Finally caught ugly truth with SX ytd. Sub consciously, I started to look for qualities of him in him. Soon a lot of things surfaced. WTFFF. Ok I didn’t do that in front of SX. I think he will want to slap my face.

Well I know it’s wrong but I can’t help it HAHAHS.

There’s no two identical persons in this world. LOL

Was supposed to go prawn fishing after the movie. But headache came to befriend me. So I had no choice but to ps him. HAHAS. If I didn’t, I will get another round of scolding, lecturing, whatever blah blah from him.

Today, was suppose to watch a movie with Brendan they all. But I really am too tired. I just can’t go out. Ya I know he’s waiting for me cos he called and called. But I just totally ignore it. Ain’t I a bitch? But I don’t care. He can’t force me to go watch a movie when I don’t want to.

Spoilt brat.

WTHHHHH. Super attitude.

Ya sucky attitude today. Too bad, YOU CAN’T PLEASE EVERYONE! HAHAHS JJ taught me that.

Okies. Tmr’s edgar lesson I better get enuff rest. I hope I will recover by tmr =)
Oh ya Oh ya I volunteered myself at orphanage and spca with fatty!! Something we both wanted to do for long. Oh yea, I think I’m going back to Sentosa to work too if I’m free. I need $$$.

Tuition is not enough for me! I need more $$$.

My zoo’s trip is confirmed!!!! I can’t wait to see my super proud yet super smelly fox. HAHAHS. My polar bears and penguins too.

I hope Friday will be Night Safari trip if nothing goes wrong =)



And lastly, congrats bro for getting his job back with his internship company =DDDD

Morning earth =)

Today's a fine day. Got a call frm SX and off we are going to watch movie cos he claimed it's his off day today. which i tink is total crap. it's like everyday it's his off day.

Do I look very busy to you guys? How come everyone keeps thinking I'm very busy everyday. Whatevers. HAHAHS

Weee i'm sooo happy. i'm finally catching up on my management accounting. i totally detest it. but do i have a choice? still i prefer it over F1. I HATE THEORIES!! at least management involves calculations and i can nv fail them. HAHAHAHS


mummy's bday soon!!!! and i noe where to bring her for dinner. all thanks to him =) HAHAHAHS. happy girl =)) but i tink my pocket will burn a big hole. nvm bro is there to share the cost heh.

everyday, it's getting better and better!!!

HAHAHS. faster and better than i expected.

i dont want to lose any good guys anymore. i learnt from past experience. if there's one b4 ur eyes. take it b4 u lose it.


well well let's see who will win the race. =)

Afternoon earth =)

I’m feeling hungry now. Yet I don’t know what I can eat. It’s gonna rain soon!! I’m soooo lazy to da bao. Any kind souls to buy food for me??

HAHAHAS I feel like slapping myself. Can’t I be a bit more independent? LOL

Yesterday was a torturing day. But luckily he saved the day once again. HAHAHS.
Well I’m appreciating the efforts placed in by everyone. Beyond hope is not the right word to use.

Since I’m so free today, I decided to study. I guess I can prepare to lose my scholarship. There’s so many things to understand. My poor brains. What the hell is wrong with those accountants? Come up with so many FRS. Wat lao eh. I can’t imagine taking law and finance next semester. I want to cry man.

I think I can start to prepare for an interview at any of the IR. But obviously I would love the one at Sentosa!!! HAHAHS.

Can’t I be smarter? Why must my brains be so dumb. Can I just use 1% more of you? Just 1% only.

If only there’s some medicine in this world that can make me smarter =D

If only I can strike TOTO. How great.


P.S. I hope that guy can just stop whatever nonsense he has. What’s the use?

Perhaps fatty is right. If that guy is like him. I would be attracted to him. I dwell on the question for so long.

What type of man am I looking for? I think at this moment I know what I’m looking for.

I hope I can drink soon =)) After this week. I shall go and do whatever I need to do. Because I know never once will the words come true. Irresponsible bastard is what comes to my mind. The true colours of a person is scary. I never once thought.. Never once did it pass by my mind. But I'm fortunate to discover them soon.

Recently I had such good nights' sleep. Well reason being, I'm so tired each day AHHAHAS.

Friday was really a fruitful day. =)) It was the day where I really really know what there is left for me to do =)
6 bottles of beers and 7 sticks. They are all not wasted. No worries!!! HAHAHAHS

Whenever I thought of something that I'm not suppose to. I will think of what he told me. "I drank so much and smoke so much just for you. Knn. Ten years of my life is just gone in one day. Not to mention the other days! So you better listen to what I say. If not I wil use all bottles to hit your head." AND "What is most important in your life?"

Ya. I really absorbed what he told me. I really did. I'm happy that he's willing to sit and listen to what I have to say, giving me tissue paper when necessary. Telling me what should be the right path and right way to go.

Yesterday was yet another tiring day. Went out early with mummy and aunite. After that I went over to orchard. Shopped around and take the train all the way to cck to song's open house. Thanks to someone, who forgotten that we could have taken a bus. We both behaved like drunk women in the train LOL.

Song and someone else(I don't rmb who) told me I'm so quiet. I think I knew the reason. But it's ok now.

After the visit at Song's house, I left azni and sq because I meeting him to play sparkles.

We made 6 sparkles rockets. But wth. None succeeded. Somemore he burnt his hand. SO FUNNY.

Well after that, he wanted to take me over to St James.

But I decided not to. Cos I'm soooooo freaking tired after a long day.


Finally the day ended. And it's home sweet home =))



Today was suppose to be movie day. But couldnt find a good timing so forget it. Just stay at home to rest.






Time really pass by so quickly. It's about a month already =) "It's only when you lose someone you thought was right, only then you will realise how foolish you have been. When the right one is already right in front of you." Well I know I can recognise the right one when he appears =D





What I learnt was, even though we are friends who don't talk for years. But once I'm are in trouble, just a phone call away or sms, you guys will be right by my side helping me through everything.

I'm glad to have friends like you all. =D



And fuck. I almost striked 4D yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2915.. It opened 2965!!!!!!!!! What lao eh. He really damn suay cui.

Yesterday almost met in a car accident while on our way home. I literally flew out of my seat and almost hit my head. So scary. The force is so huge. Then we witness 2 other accidents. Freaking suay.




Mayb, Next Friday, Halloween night at night safari =)))

I will slap anyone who tries to scare me wahahahahhaha. Hey I'm the guest afterall.







My family most probably going to buy a dog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sooooo freaking excited pls! I will bring my dog for my evening jog to scare away those insects, cats and whatever comes in my way. HEH HEH

Good afternoon people.

I’m suppose to complete my F3 questions. Since I didn’t receive any answers for it I decided to not do any of it. HAHAHS

Anyways, I’ve been invited to be a bridesmaid =D how fun?? I hope I will be able to mingle with the adults. All of them are gonna be at least 7 yrs older den me.

Well I’m happy for my cousin cum godsister. She’s been with her current bf for ard 10 years I presume? It’s time they really get married. HAHAS. Pretty difficult to maintain a r/s for so long ba. But I’m glad for them =D

Yesterday someone told me. zhou ren yao zhi zu. Even if there’s only one person out there caring for you, you should be happy that, there’s at least someone out there. Pretty true I suppose =)

Anyways I’m looking forward to next Tuesday for my tuition. the kid is really cute! bloody smart and witty too.

HAHAHAS. I think I will have a hard time.




“Right now at this second, I think I went back to the same old place. But I know, the next moment I will be gone.”


"Long gone with the wind."



=))

I just want a simple life.
It doesnt need to be luxurious.
Because money could not buy me
The happiness I'm searching for.

Singing. Playing. Her Family. Her Friends.
His Company. =))
Being Under the Sun.
Seeing the World.
Mother Nature.

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